Venting My Spleen

Monday, July 31, 2006

A Wolf In Sheeps Clothing!!!!



Have you ever been in a situation where you have had to welcome a stranger into your life be it at work , in the family or some other social capacity?

Im a creature of habit ,I suppose like lots of people I dont like change but hey life is full of ever changing situations and circumstances so yep I try and go with the flow.

Ive recently been put into a situation which meant changing a certain aspect of my life after its steady bumbling along for 8 years, difficult upsetting and uncertain yep it was but I wanted to embrace the change and make the most of it .

So the change was made and I embraced the stranger , took them into my life and made the best of the situation hopefully making an friend along the way.

Things went along quite comfortabley for about 6- 8 months, I ,believing this person was now a friend and offering what I do for any friend, my total and unconditional friendhip and loyalty.

Things started taking a turn for the worst when it became apparent to me that this person was very duplicitus and began bitching and slagging certain people off to me but continued being extreemly nice and wholesome to their faces.

This didnt sit right with me as Im the sort of person that if ya dont like what ya see then dont bloody look !Im as straight as a dye

Imagine my total shock and horror to discover this person had indeed gone behind my back and had been running me down to others whilst running them down to me and engineering a situation (unbeknown to me) which meant we would have to part company.

Ok I know when Im beaten, I dont want to have someone I dont trust that influential in my life, I know in the long run ill be a lot happier without them!

Now this is my dilema the people that this other person has been horrifically running down have abs no idea about it as this person is so believable and overly friendly to them.

These other people ,I would consider to be my friends however I know they've been taken in by this person to my detriment, Is it my duty to alert them to this wickedly two faced person? Or do I reason that I learned the hard way and so will they??

How much friendship can a pint or 2 buy????

The only person you can trust is yourself!

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Feeling vulnerable

Hey this isn't a gripe about being pregnant, not at all, being pregnant is so fantastic so overwhelming every woman should have an experience of it.
This is a gripe about how I feel so totally and utterly vulnerable ,being solely responsible for this life growing iside of me.
Im petrified that someone will attck my children and I wont be able to defend them because I am entirely responsible for this being inside me, that if I retaliated the child inside me may get hurt.

Im scared that a pupil at school will push me into a desk and the fright is not that I would be hurt but that my baby inside me seeking solace in my womb would be hurt ,just because it hapens to be me that someone has directed their anger at.
I feel helpless , I feel vulnerable ,like I need barbed wire wrapped around my stomach.
Mad isn't it???
yet I know that deep down if someone did attack my children I would fight tooth and nail for them (which is a scarier thought because then that would be my total disregard for being pregnant that would be instinctual that could end up in my baby being damaged).

ohhhhh god did i say that being pregnant makes you paranoid also?