Venting My Spleen

Monday, July 31, 2006

A Wolf In Sheeps Clothing!!!!



Have you ever been in a situation where you have had to welcome a stranger into your life be it at work , in the family or some other social capacity?

Im a creature of habit ,I suppose like lots of people I dont like change but hey life is full of ever changing situations and circumstances so yep I try and go with the flow.

Ive recently been put into a situation which meant changing a certain aspect of my life after its steady bumbling along for 8 years, difficult upsetting and uncertain yep it was but I wanted to embrace the change and make the most of it .

So the change was made and I embraced the stranger , took them into my life and made the best of the situation hopefully making an friend along the way.

Things went along quite comfortabley for about 6- 8 months, I ,believing this person was now a friend and offering what I do for any friend, my total and unconditional friendhip and loyalty.

Things started taking a turn for the worst when it became apparent to me that this person was very duplicitus and began bitching and slagging certain people off to me but continued being extreemly nice and wholesome to their faces.

This didnt sit right with me as Im the sort of person that if ya dont like what ya see then dont bloody look !Im as straight as a dye

Imagine my total shock and horror to discover this person had indeed gone behind my back and had been running me down to others whilst running them down to me and engineering a situation (unbeknown to me) which meant we would have to part company.

Ok I know when Im beaten, I dont want to have someone I dont trust that influential in my life, I know in the long run ill be a lot happier without them!

Now this is my dilema the people that this other person has been horrifically running down have abs no idea about it as this person is so believable and overly friendly to them.

These other people ,I would consider to be my friends however I know they've been taken in by this person to my detriment, Is it my duty to alert them to this wickedly two faced person? Or do I reason that I learned the hard way and so will they??

How much friendship can a pint or 2 buy????

The only person you can trust is yourself!

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Feeling vulnerable

Hey this isn't a gripe about being pregnant, not at all, being pregnant is so fantastic so overwhelming every woman should have an experience of it.
This is a gripe about how I feel so totally and utterly vulnerable ,being solely responsible for this life growing iside of me.
Im petrified that someone will attck my children and I wont be able to defend them because I am entirely responsible for this being inside me, that if I retaliated the child inside me may get hurt.

Im scared that a pupil at school will push me into a desk and the fright is not that I would be hurt but that my baby inside me seeking solace in my womb would be hurt ,just because it hapens to be me that someone has directed their anger at.
I feel helpless , I feel vulnerable ,like I need barbed wire wrapped around my stomach.
Mad isn't it???
yet I know that deep down if someone did attack my children I would fight tooth and nail for them (which is a scarier thought because then that would be my total disregard for being pregnant that would be instinctual that could end up in my baby being damaged).

ohhhhh god did i say that being pregnant makes you paranoid also?

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Fathers Day.

Most of my friends have been out carefully (or not so carefully) selecting fathers day cards and presents and duely moaning about the price of them or how much theyve had to spend on them.
They speak about the giving of such presents in a flippant way saying things like "well he'd better be grateful" or "he doesnt deserve anything decent this year".
Its all said in good humour and to be honest I know that they love thier dads and only say such things because theyre comfortable with the fact that hes always been there to buy presents for, fix the leaky radiator or sit round the table on a sunday burping or farting.

My dad died 3 years ago,at the age of 64 , I only had him for 29 years and god how I miss him now.
I hate listening to people moan on about the price of a fathers day card Id give up everything I own and pay any price to be able to hand him a card and give him a cuddle.
My dad was the back bone of my family, he was the one man in my life who never ever let me down and always had the right word of advice wether it was what I wanted to hear or not.

He has left an enormous hole in my life and in my heart and I don't think I will ever get over him not being here.
Sometimes it feels like he's been gone so long, he was never here at all. sometimes I wake up in the morning and remember he died and I physically cant breathe.

Don't take the people you love for granted, don't assume they will be here tommorrow. Tell them how you feel about them now, today for if you don't,when they are gone you will for ever have regrets.
Don't moan about the price of a card, buy the most expensive one you can afford for one day youll look back and count all the special occasions that theyve been missing for and wish, just wish that you get that chance just one more time.

Happy Fathers day Dad , I love you

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Ding Dong The Witch IS Dead!!!

yihhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, the best £1.50 ive spent in my life has just been my contribution in Graces departure from the big brother house.
For the past few weeks she has bitched, sniped, back stabbed and been totally smarmy to the point where I have very nearly head butted my tv screen.
What a nasty jealous spightful little minx she is and she really thinks she is a nice person and by her own admission not at all bitchy Haaaaa!!!!!!!
Well ding dong the witch is dead !!lets hope and pray that next time little miss sloane ranger is out in public that someone gives her a short sharp slap!!!!!!!.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006


Is she for real?????

Now I realise that it must have been upsetting for Grace on friday hearing the booing and chanting in favour of her eviction, what amazes me is that she has absoloubtly no understanding of why they should be booing like that.
Obviously she considers herself the 'Housemates friend' despite the times she has riddiculed sniped at and slagged off various members of the house.
Trouble is , shes trying to back peddle now and undertake things to make people realise that shes not like that yet she appears to have forgotton that big brother is exactly that, watching them 24/7 in every room and at every angle. She has come accross to me as a nasty spightful girl who likes her own way and likes to cajoal others into conversations/ actions that they would not normally engage in.
I can totally see how she would be a ring leader and bully/ intimidate people less able to stand up for themselves.
The disapointment on her face and sheer disbelief that someone had stood up against her in the waiting game and won and all she could say was " its cool honastly".
She is a nasty vindictive spoilt little madam who needs t take a long hard look at herself when she comes out and I for 1 will be texting like mad to get her out !!!

Friday, June 09, 2006

God bless little boys

Soooooo I have an 8 year old son who is in his first year of juniors school. He never was very studious and quite frankly to quote a stereo type if he were a woman he'd be a dizzy blonde!!!.
He forgets his lunch box despite handing it to him seconds before he leaves through the door. He miss lays his shoes even though he's just taken them off and Im sure if his head hadn't been secure that would have gone too.

Anyway, a term has gone by and he has bought no homework back from school which im more than a little concerned over.
Ok they have had S.A.T.S and then there was a week of African celebration where they came off timetable and took part in various activities to do with Africa .
These weeks came and went and sure enough his best friend who is in the opposite class to him has been bringing worksheet after work sheet home of maths english and geography.

My curiosity got the better of me this morning and I telelphoned the school (feathers slightly ruffled) ready for a showdown about the lack of homework.
I ate a lot of humble pie when she told me in an indignant tone that "don't you know that he brings himself to the homework club every lunch time to do his homework so that he doesnt have to bring it home and worry you with it, hes told me you cant do maths !!!!!"

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

The big cake debate

I went to Greggs the cake shop at 5.10 pm the close at 5.30 pm I asked for a steak bake to which they replied " weve sold out of them"
So I chose a sausage roll instead. Whilst I was choosing said sausage roll i watched the counter staff throw away several trays of cakes , biscuits and pies.

When I questioned the conter assistant about it she said " I know its scandalous isnt it, were not allowed to have them , we have to pay for them"!!!!!!

I guess at about 150 cakes and pies went into their bin. The bosses of Greggs would rather bin the goods then sell them at a reduced rate or let the staff benefit from them !

Mad or what?